What's My Story
An Eye-Opener
Jakesmama
The difference is a life or death scenerio. I can either die spiritually and not spend eternity with my Father or I can live for Christ and be confident knowing that.
Coming to know Jesus changed every aspect of my life. I was no longer just living for myself but living to serve a greater purpose. It was difficult to make the transistion because I knew that I would have to dissolve unhealthy factors in my life. The main one that was difficult was sex. I lived a very free life when it came to this and never looked at it as anything except it was something to do. But when I accepted Jesus into my life, my eyes were opened and my sinful acts began to disgust me.
God has given me a chance to live again. I knew that I was going to live a short life because of all things that were important in my life. I was content with that because I knew I was living the way I wanted to.
On December 8th 1997, my 27th birthday, God awakened me when I left my OB/GYN. The thought of bringing a life into my life as it was scared me to death. I knew everything had to change. I felt like someone was tugging on me trying to get my attention or trying to get me to wake up. Now I knew that specific people in my life then were praying for me and I think I felt that that day. When I went home to my apartment I prayed for myself and my baby. With a vengence I clean out my apartment of anything that facilitated my sins. I'm not going to lie because it was a difficult process and these things in my life were my escape from everything. But I knew deep down what I had to do.
Have you ever been in the beach and tried to swim through the waves but there is one after one after one making it difficult to for you to catch your breath? Well that is how I saw my life. I was constantly trying to ride the waves which symbolized promiscuity, drugs, lies, cheating and list goes on and on. I was drowning in all of that but was too blind and stupid to recognize it. With God in my life I know I don't need be in the dangerous waters and that He is my life saver.