What's My Story
Desperately Seeking Peace
heatherj
Before I had a relationship with Jesus, I was very independent and relied on myself for everything.
I had to be in control of my life and the things going on around me. If something was broke, I had to fix it. If I didn't know how to fix it, I had to learn and this often would run myself to death trying to fix issues or worrying about how to fix it.
When a friend on the internet first shared Jesus with me and I began to understand more fully about the life value in a relationship with Jesus.
From that moment, I realized that I didn't have to be in control of my life and moreover, I would never have control over my life. I began to understand that Jesus was in control of my life.
I can remember an incredibly hot summer and my air conditioner breaking. It was the proverbial last straw after many other financial burdens that had hit. I tried everything I knew to fix the air conditioner and finally threw my hands up in the air and said, "Lord, I can't control this. I've done what I can. Either fix the air conditioner or put me in the path of a way to fix it." The next morning, I awoke freezing as the air conditioner was again working.
But allowing Jesus to handle the things that I am incapable of controlling brings a peace over me because I know that I can turn them over. I can't control many things in this life including when I die, but I know that when I do, I'm going to be with God in Heaven and have eternal life.