ive been christian for most of my life, grew up in a christian family, and have always gone to church and youth group through high school but for about 2 years i didnt think God was important enough to be in my life, so i went to church to stuff around and never payed attention. i got told that if i didnt start behaving there i would get kicked out, so i started listening more. that didnt change much, i just stopped annoying everyone. in year 7 i started going to bible study and really felt that something needed to change. i recommitted my life to christ and things started going better.
i had problems at home and bordered on depression. several times i though about taking my own life and never had anyone to talk to. when i joined a bible study i opened up to the guys leading it and slowly i became happier and life was looking up. i talked to them about my problems at home and we discussed it, and theyre are getting better over time.
during that time i felt like no one understood how i was feeling, and i didnt have any friends who would take the time to talk to me, more importantly i didnt think anyone would want to or cared about me.
before i recommitted to christ, i was pretty depressed and had no one to talk to. i thought about killing myself several times, and went as far as thinking how it would affect the people i knew. bible study opened my eyes to how stupid those thoughts were and i havent thought about it again since.
Then, I received eternal life.
from then on, ive enjoyed life more, the little things that make you smile, i smile at. my friends are actually friends again and i can talk to them when i need to winge about stuff.
when i recommitted my life to christ, i started seeing the impact of his grace in it. i know that he loves me and nothing can bring me down to the state i was in before. i know i can fully rely on him through thick and thin, he is always there.
i know that jesus died for me, to take away my sins and that he secured a spot especially for me in heaven.