I am so glad that God has control of everything and knows exactly what we need to trust in him.
I was brought up in church and became a Christian when I was 12, but in my 20's I decided to take the gifts of the spirit and follow my own ideas instead of being lead by God.
I went into the world attempting to experience the American dream, and by most accounts was doing a pretty good job of doing just that. I had a nice house, a good job, 2 kids, a beautiful wife and was living the middle class dream, but something was missing.
As I hit my early 40's I looked back on my life, as many people do around this age and realized that I was spiritually empty. I had taken the gifts that God provides us as his children and I had squandered them on natural things. I was focused on loving myself rather than God and others.
I have now recommited my life to Jesus and he has restored my spiritual gifts. Now I am using those gifts to glorify him and his kingdom. I now focus on loving God and others first.
I now feel spiritually full, the thing that was missing (Jesus) is there in my heart again.